As I lay in bed with another EBV flareup I realized it’s been quite some time since I did a blog.
Upon returning home from Mexico after getting Stem Cells I walked into my house and immediately noticed a musty smell. At this point in my life I’m starting to realize that not many people understand chronic illness. So when I notice new things the response is typically a dismissive one. I decided I needed to make sure I wasn’t living in mold which can prolongate EBV. So I called a mold company and they came out a couple days later. They ran their tests and I had to wait a week for the tests to be sent to a third party to get results. Turns out I was living in mold😱. Working from home and living in mold nearly 24/7 for majority of the pandemic! It took about 2 more weeks to get an appointment for the mold remediation. So at this point I had been living in mold for 3 more weeks since my return from getting stem cells. I needed to move out for the mold remediation to take place and plus I wanted to physically detox as well as I had to take a Pekana mold detox prescribed by my naturalpathic Dr. Luckily my dad was able to find me a cute little cottage for rent nearby for a couple months.
While I was at my new place I decided to bring my mom up for the night. Watching my mom deteriorate with Dementia is incredibly devastating and there simply are not enough words to describe the pain that this has caused my family. So much so that I am not speaking to some family members. I still love them endlessly, but sometimes in this journey of life we must put up boundaries. It’s healthy for everyone as we all try to process this in our own way. In any case, I hear my mom get up to use the restroom in the middle of the night and instead she was headed out the front door. She didn’t know this and I redirected her to the bathroom. She has unknowingly left before in the middle of the night and was caught on a ring camera prior to being placed in a memory care home. Needless to say I couldn’t sleep worried my mom was going to walk out the front door. After I got her settled back into bed about 5 minutes later I was stung by a scorpion. That was sting #16! I was also stung by a wasp about a week later. I chalk these up as the universe trying to keep things entertaining. 🤣 I took my mom back to the memory care place and while I definitely do not think this is the best place for her(I dream of a place full of healthy food and activities that help the brain), she is safe and they love her and bottom line is I have to take care of myself. 🥹
The mold remediation was a success. 2 months later I was able to move back home. I should mention when I got back from Mexico, I was working with my naturalpath as I was feeling pretty crummy and in another EBV flareup and she referred me to Biofeedback and Neurofeedback as people with mold and EBV have seen success with this alternative treatment. So, I signed up for a 6 month program of LENS, FSM, SET and HALO treatments. (I will explain these treatments in a separate post) I have about 2 months of treatment remaining. The Biofeedback Dr also connected me with an amazing spiritual chiropractor. That is my name for him (lol) as he is very in tune with energy and releasing stagnant energy.
I had 3 months off of work and I returned to work in July. So, I have been juggling working and going to Biofeedback (1.5 hour drive each way) Thursday’s and Fridays and on Wednesdays I go to the chiropractor. The drive three times a week after work has been challenging, but the Biofeedback treatment and the Chiropractor have been life changing. Talk about truly getting to the root of my illness. Seeing people who understand what’s going on with me has been the most validating experience in my now 3 year journey to wellness. The kindness and acknowledgment they have shown me has made me feel like I will get through this! 💪🏼 Meeting supportive healers along the way has been the brightest light to all of this! I have also been working with a therapist/biz coach (details on this later in the post.) 💚
I have noticed that I have been feeling better for longer periods of time. I made it 3 weeks with feeling rather normal and it feels weird to feel normal. Like, I broke down and cried to my Dr that I almost feel like my brain came back online after being offline for so long. I feel like I’ve missed out on so much life. Many people stop inviting me to do things and I certainly don’t blame them. My life consists of all things healing and I know this is exactly where I’m meant to be. For now. Unexpectedly, I have gained so many people in my life that are also healing and on a spiritual path which is aligning with the new Aut. 💫 🧘♀️
Unfortunately, a week ago I had requested a pumpkin pie and I have not really ate anything with sugar in years. 🥧 I couldn’t stop myself. I nearly ate the whole thing in one sitting! Lol! You guys….I was beside myself with how delicious it was! Little did I know this would set me back tremendously. I have had massive brain fog and have barely slept all week. (Yes, I’m that friend that I was referring to for insomnia avoidance tips). Another flareup 🤦♀️😩! It really got me emotional this time because I thought for some reason I was able to just eat anything I wanted because I started feeling so good. Nope. Hard lesson learned. Couple that with seeing my mom at my nephews baseball game and feeling overwhelmed that I can’t help her and only to watch her progress with her state of being … I could literally feel how this emotional stress is affecting every cell in my body!! I will need to work on not allowing my moms illness to take a toll on me. (This is very hard!) Also, I will probably be on a rather restricted diet for the remainder of my earth experience. Speaking of a restricted diet…The only thing I had not removed was coffee. Let me have my coffee. ☕️ Well, turns out coffee has been wreaking havoc on my body and I am now 6 weeks sans coffee and doing better than expected without it. 🤷🏼♀️ Red raspberry leaf non caffeinated tea for the win! 🫖
I KNOW that I will get through this flareup. The important thing for me is that when I saw my chiropractor he was able to identify that my lymph nodes in my neck were completely swollen. He always reassures me that I am healing!! Then the next day at the Neurofeedback appointment it showed that 6 parts of my brain were “sleeping.” (see LENS treatment below). For years I have been telling Drs, NMDs, friends and family members that what I feel is horrible and now I have actual evidence that shows I’m in a flareup and that everything I’m feeling is real. Oddly enough, this in of itself makes me feel better.
It’s not all doom and gloom. Lol! In fact while I’m rather bummed I’m in the midst of yet another flareup… that pumpkin pie came with a big lesson. I must remain mindful of everything I put in my body! This includes my emotional well being as well! I can do this! Additionally, all of this is bringing me to my life purpose. My Dharma. To help others who have had to deal with the absolute broken western medicine system. America’s slogan for healthcare should be: We strive for mediocre healthcare and blood pressure meds, antidepressants and removing body parts are the norm! 🤣 I digress. Navigating this failing system and in the process finding so many beautiful alternative treatments is bringing to my calling of becoming a Chronic Illness Coach. In addition to getting Reiki 1 & 11 certified, I have also become a certified Yoga Vinyasa teacher, Akashic records and completing my breathwork certification very soon!! I have completed level 1 Ayurvedic cert and all of 2023 I will attend school to become an Ayurvedic practitioner. So I can honestly say I’m incredibly thankful for this illness as I can’t wait to utilize my teaching background to help others obtain wellness in their own journey. Follow me on Instagram: CoachAutumnAZ
Thank you for taking the time out of your busy life to get the raw, unfiltered version of what it’s like to live with a chronic illness. I am sure if you are reading this you or someone you know is also experiencing living with a chronic illness. It’s so incredibly common and I just appreciate you allowing me to share my story as it has its own therapeutic healing and through my journey I hope to be able to help others! 💚
Eat. Meditate. HEALth.
Journey to wellness! 